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But it is. mostly about the great, unspeakable, forbidden taboo in matters of love. Even. the greatest of lovers keep certain parts of themselves secret and hidden. They. may want to give or receive or share their complete selves, but they can't. We live in a cycle of shame about. That makes me very sad. The great, forbidden taboo, the. Jeanette calls . We do these unspeakable things alone, in. I think that people need to feel free to. I have been fortunate to be able to. I had a lot of help. So, this is a book about that. Some of it may be. It used to be for me, too. Now, it makes. me moist between the legs! I am a psychologist. I have written. and published books about psychology, but this is not a psychology book (even. I know I won't be able to keep myself from piping up a lot about. I do). But I did not write. If it helps you love yourself and others, I'll be. But I wrote this book to tell my personal story about what it has. It is a story of my journey. It is a celebration of me. I hope it helps lead you to your. With love and regards,Linda Keresan. San Diego, California. Chapter 1 My own. Darcy De. Vries. Darcy came to see me in mid- May. It was on a Wednesday. She was. anxious to have an appointment when she called on the phone that morning. I. feel like I need to talk to someone in detail about it. She had chestnut brown hair, creamy- white skin, and delicate. Her physical loveliness had a tragic intensity that can best. She wore a charming and very expensive pale. She was very mature for being only nineteen. She had. definitely had some life experience...... We were sitting in comfortable. I don't hide behind a desk. He revolutionized the field of. Freudian pedestal. I'm a very good therapist. My practice is humming. During our first meeting, Darcy. She hadn't made that inquiry when she. I never charge for the first meeting, but. I have to charge that to get any decent. But Darcy had said that she had no insurance. In spite. of her lovely clothing, she didn't carry herself as someone with wealth, so I. I later realized. That was my first mistake, in a way. I suppose it had something to do with that. That same tragic quality came out in her voice, a. I'm. in what they call a . I gave Darcy my little lecture on. Darcy asked if she could come more than that, because. We scheduled her for Mondays, Wednesdays, and. Fridays at ten o'clock in the morning. That's a hard slot to fill. She. hadn't read either of the books I have published. She had gotten my name from. I flipped on my tape recorder after. I liked to tape sessions to help me remember the important things. I have a nice, high tech file system, and a new transcriber. I can have an. automatic written record of client sessions. It helps a lot with the research. I write books. Darcy had filled out my preliminary information sheet, but I. I asked her to tell me a little about herself...... Some patients start out calling me . I'm a non- directive therapist because that works best...... He. was very mean to me. He has a drinking problem and would beat me up sometimes. Sexual abuse is so frequent nowadays that I can almost assume it, but I. I had curled my legs beneath me in my chair. I was wearing a spring pantsuit, light cotton, with a green. Darcy sat rigidly in her chair. I could tell she was. Not unusual at the first session...... I don't have any memory of that. He was basically just mean. She was a wallflower, usually, although she spanked me a few times when I. She was basically very quiet. I don't have any brothers or sisters. The thing was, he had always said that there was this. I turned eighteen. He said he was. saving up lots of money for that. Are they no longer living? I have no desire to see them. I got so. angry with him when he told me that. It was the first time I had been angry with. When I got angry, he backed down. That. surprised me so much. An interesting revelation. You. had more power than you thought you had. Anyway, he. finally said that there wasn't any trust fund. That night he got drunk and tried. I vowed was the last time. I promised myself to get out. I hated that butcher shop. I'm a vegetarian, anyway. I. couldn't get a job. I was afraid to put down on the application about. So I didn't have any experience that I could write down. It's a nice. office, a nice house. The house is actually far too big for just me. I bought it. on a whim because I loved the location and the garden. It's right on the beach. The two books have done very well, and I've invested. I learned how to buy channeling stocks five years ago. I'm also a silent. I mean, I thought I was going to die. I stayed. I'm not a prostitute. Sometimes a girl gets. I thought that maybe I could, you know, find. I would have time. Anyway, I bought the paper and looked through the ads. My heart really went out to her. I can't do good therapy when I start caring as much. I was starting to for this darling girl...... But I guess there was this one ad that sort of caught my eye. It. said that this 'generous' man wanted a pretty young girl to .. This is. really embarrassing. It meant 'golden shower.'. He sounded like an old guy on the. Actually, he sounded a little like my father. For a second there, I had. It was just some old guy. He was looking for a. We set a date for the next day in this coffee shop. I got dressed up and fixed my hair real nice, like I needed to impress. He was this sixty- year- old guy, and married. He told. me that he had had this kinky desire all his life and couldn't get his wife to. He kept telling me how pretty I was. Very. beautiful, in fact. It was very dumb of me to say. I don't know why I. I resettled myself in my chair. Really beautiful girls, by the way. It is my experience that they usually end up. I have some personal as well as professional. I've always been quite attractive...... Do you think. that's prostitution? People do lots of things for money. I believe that people do what they. You shouldn't be hard so on yourself. You were. doing what you had to do to survive, and I admire that a lot. Her body began to relax. The hotel was a couple of miles away and I. I would need taxi fare, and he gave me twenty dollars. He asked me if I. I came. I had never dreamed that people were interested. I was a little. disappointed, I guess. But that was the only time. I was pretty nervous, but I figured that this was the only way I was going to. He was very polite, like a real gentleman, actually. He sort of made it easy for me, even though I was really. Anyway, he had taken all of the covers off the bed and had like. He. said that he wanted to take his clothes off and lie down on the bed and have me. It sounded sort of harmless, in. Harmless, and, I don't know, almost ridiculous, really. It was just, you. So he took his clothes off and sat there naked on the edge. He looked pretty funny. He was old and sort of fat. Do you really want to hear all these. That's. what 'de- briefing' is about. But it's entirely up to you, okay? Okay, so anyway, he undressed me really slowly. He was. kind of like a kid unwrapping a Christmas present, that was the thought I had. I. remember he reached down and very carefully unlaced my tennis shoes and took. That was sort of touching, actually. Then he took my socks off. Then. he pulled my shorts down, and then my panties. I turned crimson, I was so. He just kept telling me how beautiful he thought. I was. Anyway, then he put his hands on my stomach and asked me if I had to go. I said that I did, which was true because of all that water. I drank. He kissed my stomach - - he kissed it in a really nice way, actually. I. went ahead and straddled his chest and he put his fingers on my .. Like I said, he was very gentle. I could tell he. was really getting excited. As much as I had to pee, I couldn't make it come out. I told him that, so he stopped, and I closed. I started .. It sprinkled all over. I couldn't believe it. It felt so strange on top of him like that, naked. It was sort of. fun, actually. I want to say liberating, almost. I mean, it was really shocking to me. And then he. scooted himself down and put his hands on my hips and sort of pulled me down. I was actually urinating. And he was actually drinking it and playing with. Like it was really. I kept thinking. about the two hundred dollars, really. It was my ticket out, you know? That's. probably why it felt sort of freeing. I could tell. by the sounds he was making. And then he reached his climax, at about the same. I was finished peeing. I got up and grabbed my clothes and went in the. I got dressed and went back out. He had his clothes back. That was kind of a rush. Anyway, he said that he wanted. He said that I was the sweetest girl he had. It sort of gave me chills the way he. Anyway, we talked about it for a little. Monday and Wednesday and Friday morning for five. It was the same schedule as her therapy appointments with me. My mind. was racing to see if I could figure out any significance in that. I decided not. to say anything. Looking back, though, that's when the first fantasy came to me. I also pride myself in being in control all. I am in that therapist chair. I am a disciplined and neutral. My own personal material or interests have no place there. But. something broke right then for just an instant. A vivid vision leapt into my. The vision was me, lying naked in my bed, which was. I knew. from that moment that staying completely objective was going to be a challenge. Darcy, because she had that luscious and youthful vulnerability that made. I sat across from her listening to her selfassured. I loved her way of speaking. That delicate, melodic, sepulchral little. She was indeed a little girl. It was what I do best, the very work that is closest to my heart. Providing that sensitive. 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